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Friday, March 05, 2010

Run

You hear nothing but the sound of your feet thudding away on the uneven grass. Dodge to avoid the odd shrub or raised patch of earth that comes in your way, leap over the raised water pipe that is a permanent fixture on the football field. It's nothing but a glorious obstacle course. The wind blows through your short hair as you adjust your earphones and are greeted by The Killers. Think nothing, feel nothing. Except the delightful twinge of pain in your calves as you near your penultimate stretch. Any minute now...

An upbeat song comes up and you make an effort not to sprint. Must conserve energy. The last half-lap comes up and you can't take it any more. You pull out your earphones so they don't fall out and hinder you, and you take off. Fast. Faster. Faster than all those painful, miserable thoughts. The need to feel good about yourself. The need to feel wanted, the need to feel loved. The need to feel attractive, to feel worthy. Of yourself, of those who love you. Of anyone's attention, of any love or affection that you already have.

You hear and feel nothing except your breath coming in heavy pants as you tear across the field. You reach the end and almost collapse. Who knew exhaustion could be so pleasant.

And as you gather yourself, gulp cold water and head back, you reflect on what a good friend told you and feel a faint sardonic smile creep across your face.

"He can only be your walking stick. He cannot be your rock."

8 comments:

raghu said...

nice :)

soin said...

if he was rock wont you be tied down? and if you do follow football-when terry walked on to the wembley pitch they played killer's mr.brightside..free

JD said...

really nice.

Jil Jil Ramamani said...

"Of anyone's attention, of any love or affection that you already have."

Dude........?

Running is awesome. But yes, I give 'falling head over heels' a whole new meaning when I do.

Doominion said...

This is wonderfully versed...

Divya said...

Thank you :)

Goofball said...

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Love it!! :)

Divya said...

@Goofball- Thanks :D