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Saturday, June 03, 2006

Heartache

Why am I doing this to myself? The one thing that I do not want to think about, which makes me burn from within- why does it have to float on the surface of the murky sea of thoughts that exists in my mind?? The more I try to forget about it, the more I fail to do so…

As I lie in bed, I’m writing this down because I’m unable to sleep.. Not a new experience and not really surprising, considering all I did today, but this is specifically because of that one stupid thing that fails to find it’s way out of my head. I’m so tired… but the moment I close my eyes, nothing else comes to mind but that.

As my mind simultaneously also jumps from one thing to another, I see a large letter “L” lying on its side. More letters join it to form a word that can be read by tilting your head to the left.. The word is LANDMINE. Why..? But appropriate, huh? I just might go off with one more step!

I hate this.. Why am I doing this to myself..? I need to let this go, and quick..


4 comments:

raghu said...

wat da hell happend 2 u?
u sad or sumthin?

Divya said...

I was.. Over and done with now..

sun4none said...

ok.. same ol' but havta:

ARTIST: Fool's Garden
TITLE: Lemon Tree

I'm sitting here in the boring room
It's just another rainy Sunday afternoon
I'm wasting my time, I got nothing to do
I'm hanging around, I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens
And I wonder

I'm driving around in my car
I'm driving too fast, I'm driving too far
I'd like to change my point of view
I feel so lonely, I'm waiting for you
But nothing ever happens
And I wonder

I wonder how, I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see is just a yellow lemon-tree
I'm turning my head up and down
I'm turning turning turning turning turning around
And all that I can see is just another lemon-tree

I'm sitting here, I miss the power
I'd like to go out, taking a shower
But there's a heavy cloud inside my head
I feel so tired, put myself into bed
Where nothing ever happens
And I wonder

Isolation is not good for me
Isolation - I don't want to sit on the lemon-tree
I'm steppin' around in the desert of joy
Baby anyhow I'll get another toy
And everything will happen and you wonder

And I wonder, wonder

I wonder how, I wonder why
Yesterday you told me 'bout the blue blue sky
And all that I can see
And all that I can see
And all that I can see
Is just a yellow lemon-tree

Anonymous said...

nice blog....u got an amazin sense of emotions....but u r definetly confused.....